my first successful blog

fuck as a full stop

2007-04-16T07:35:00.000-07:00

i totally donn wad to do fuck having such a boring boyfriend fuck hu doesnt like to talk on the fone fuck hu onli like to mit up mit or talk on fone sure quarelfuck i jut hate it fck isit the time to get a new one fuck i so hope he will make life more xciting fuck i have tried all shits fuck it doesnt help at all to spice up our relationship fuck i hope hw will change fuck almost 4 freaking years fuck i cant stand it animore fuck i just feel like dumping him soon fuck i feel much of liking sum FUN guys fuck i hate my life fuck just hope i die faste fuck

to be contined fuck fuck fuck

gastric flu

2007-04-15T19:31:00.000-07:00

damn.. so sway to have this supid gastric flu... wad the hell.. cause mi to vomit like nobody business... eat vomit, drink vomit... wat the fuck... luckily mum is here she can actually take care of mi ya... perhaps.. i have sleepless nite... my mum was like snoring like a boar... how to slp? damn it.. i msg him. n he sae he's goin cum n visit in the morngin ard 11am... guess wad.. i called him ard 20am.. just woke up.. n act like nothing shit happen... hw sad rite? the moment he msg mi im sick eh bobo,, i strait away go to his plc- even he stays at aris ther.. cook him poridge, buy him herbal tea.. wad he did? npthing? he just plainly tired n just wa to fuck off n slp.
helo ur gf is fucking sick at hm alone.. u didnt even use ur fucking knn ccb brain to think hw much she needed u... wad the fuck... nw then i realise wads more important to hm- well actually i long kw wads impt to him- but todae.. im really disapointed and very upset. he didnt een care... wel.. i tin i knw wad i should do now. be single again n fuck off... arrggghhh my stomach is so numb... i dun wan to get sick... damn it

the next hostel?

2007-04-14T08:11:00.000-07:00

i dun tink so... turistas- tink is tourist in brazillian. this movie.. wad the hell... in the newspaper... better than the film hostel, bla bla... kiss my ass man.. hu is the editor... hu actualyl posted the fucking comment...
hostl still the best.. im still waiting for the 2nd one to cum... hmmm
its m18 n all u can c its tits, ass, n the bloddy eye poking with satay stick, cutting the stomach n take the liver n kidney.. helll its abit fake though the content of the stomach... well... not so gud.. just tt alot bikinis-tink guys will totally love it... just tt the guy-hu survives of course- is so cute... its the same guy-again hu survives in the movie-the cave... josh duhamel.

meet him in the morning... c doctor.. chey tot wad... his toe actually infected bcoz sum wooden shit got in to the skin.. then todae the doc gave him medicine and cream to apply... went to his plc put my dede... he n sister novia now okay already... so happy to hear tt.. so no more shit reason for him not to slp at hm!
im totally bored man.. he pissed mi off so mani times.. saying sum annoying shits...will we actuall still b together to celebrate our 4th aniversary? n he replied" That depends on u" wat the hell... my annoying-ness n irritating-ness have made him to answer mi like tt... dumb ass... y its nt the hell wooden plank with the rusty nail on it tt u step on? so tt nt onli infection but worse like nid to amputate yer leg or sumting... u better stay close to mi u asswipe...
im stll tired got to b sleepiG beauty...

so long

2007-04-13T02:01:00.000-07:00

its been so long since my last enrty... been pretty busy with the hectic schedule.. well actually more of the working at curry favor than doing hw i would sae.. abit regret though... aniwae.. finlly graphic installation over. its like a huge lump in ur body gone... damn la... yesterdae stay overnite in skul.. reach skul ard 10pm then start doing until tis afternoon.. which i finish at 3.30pm
imagine tt.. a satisfactory result though... love my work...

hehehe... damn la.. we talked alot... i mean while doing sum sht work.. go opp buy cup noodles n stuff...

loves ping's installation as well... she took a week or 2 wks to compete it.

i so miss him suddenly.. but last few days when i msg him, sacarsticly teling him off y nv msg mi at all.. a simple reply, i just had a small operation on the leg. wad the fuck.. i tink its bcoz sum shit batukarang or fish. n his leg got infected.. i was furious of course.. im his gf, i tot i should knw this... end up the last one to knw. worse if i hadnt msg i would NEVER knw!!!!
i was pretty shit angry. n worse resaon he could give was no BALANCE. i tink i will have to do tt sumtime.. so tt he'll knw hw does it feel
he still dun msg mi.. so i tink its pretty shit... i hate this kinda shit oso... i hope to be single again... im tired of not being told a shit. im tired of being just a girlfriend. hate him. fuck

hungry gorilla

2007-04-08T06:29:00.000-07:00

i hate sunday most. its like u eat non stop when u have nothing to do.. again i slpt like a pig todae.. felt so nourished---i knw i shldt hv used the word.. i just felt nourished by the beauty slp...hmmmm, last nite... yen discover sumting frm brandon- the ahbeng frm our sec skul. damn hilarious. there is a frenster acc for those gangsters, ah beng n lians. tts really weird.. n surprisingly tt acc has quite alot of friends-members la... itsl like so dumb, when u add tt gangster acc means u r AN AH LIAN OR AH BENG. dumb teenagers.

http://www.friendster.com/usersearch.php?page=1&usearch=gangster&country=SG&location=&distance=

go to this add n u'll c this acc name gangster. with a tiger painting as display pic. its so shitty.. i dono y i couldnt view the profile. it wrote this user's profile not found.
tts weird. i tot i just saw it like last nite.. damn... u guys check it out.

i so miss my bf. he didnt msg mi la. damn him... i called him in the afternoon.. he sounds groggy still.. just woke up--i called him like 3.30pm ..damn last nite sure have fucking fun with yer frens.. at the Karaoke..

so craving for raisins... hmm sun maid stil the best

sentosa & bigger breasts

2007-04-07T20:47:00.000-07:00

woke up damn late again another 1pm... wohohoho.... so shiok after so long... nv had a real gud slp... even weekends.. will b woken up chirping bird? pls there are no birds in singapore... only my load speaker sister and the MAXIMUM volume of the LCD bravo tv.... damn.. hte it.. so feel like moving out when i tot abt it---yen sae" u stay whr? with kiang?" pls dun bothe... NOYB.
todae again.. late for mitting.. suposedly miting david n sarah-- the hot sister and bitch firdaus at 2pm.. late la.. damn woke up then rush like hell bath n quickly leave the huse--- damn im like gving the whole detail of shits...
ok nvm... met them at harbourfront mrrt...eh everyone was so dress up in BEACH where... xcept with wtf is fir wearing.. long cargo pants> pls lo... n poor him got to wear the losy donno wad brand slipper.. his haivannas got stollen.. wat the helll.. the thief must b fucking despo... slipper oso wan to steal...
reach sentosa... fucking raining... cant do much.. dave n sis went to the water first then this lifeguard so bony n thin-- i dun even knw why the hell he can get the job. i tot in baywatch all the lifeguard suppose to be HOT have HOT bods and prepare to take it off anitinme?
so crowded todae... stupid mi forget to bring all the shit.. so i got to buy this bikini... good buy la.. not very nice but.. cheap... is like 50%off...
then im like so embaraased.. smal breast still parade ard the beach. .damn it... with the rib cage so obvious bet the breast-- pls dun try to visualise it in mind.. its like almost nicole ritchie..damn.. i got to drink more milk... massage breast everydae... n only breast chicken-white meat onli... gffing down everydae for a month.. c wheter can help.. or mayb buy the breast cream...
damn it.. i wan bigger breasts...

essay over

2007-04-06T01:05:00.000-07:00

finally after gulping 2 cups of owl brand coffee-- doesnt work at all. i finished my 2000 words damn essay... luckily todae hidayah didnt write my name down on the board.. poor nabil became the laughing stock.. wahahah... its damn hilarious.. he's so metro man.. love him.." u go gurl" hehehe
i so miss him... last nite.. when i was chiong-ing for my bloody essay.. received a sms frm his mum saying tt on the 5th supposedly to b his daddy's bdae . so they sumhow clelebrating.. but i tot last tue i heard sumting frm wei lun tt they postpone the NOVIA bdae celebration to the 5th.. weird kinda... she msg mi like.. asking mi to go back f i du have skul.. well i dun have skul.. its nt i dun wan to but still... its like i dun wan to be stuck there.. my dearest darling will b so busy entertaining his frens rather than chill with his gf. damn... i knew it.. th scenario will go like..." kiang, can u like entertain me... " i never ask u to cum wad. its u wan to cum urself.. my frens dun cum here often... u can talk to novia, play with the kids wad..." then i'll b like rolling my eyes and one of my ALTOs, samantha will take over. it has became a ridiculous me. then he will again " U GO BACK LA CB" creating a scene has always been in his BLOOD i donno y.. he just cant take my unreasonable-ness anymore... i told him b4, if he couldnt then leave.. nobody is forcing him...
omg.. im such a bitch here.. bitching n humiliate n despise my dearest creature on my bloody-boring-blog....
he's so not gonna miss me... he has got his own friends... totally forgot abt me! welll lets c then... hu is more impt...

oh shit... forgot to share the inner most of mE todae...
i saw ***** todae.. sitting with * its like so i donno... i asked THEM abt ani new people in ******'s life? they just simply ans a" ONLY FRIEND" whom ******'s been talking to (fone) all these while.. i wonder hu SHE is... i kinda regret doing this.. but i have no choice.. whats been done already too late.. well mayb, perhaps, should have? gv a chance. i hope u all the best and im happi--well nt really happi---just say for the sake of saying-- tt u have found tt special SHE

fuck essay

2007-04-03T23:14:00.000-07:00

im so fucked... i hope i was born smart... i hope i was i was i was... was was was...
im still struggling with the essay.. pls help... after craking n squeezing al my brains out.. wad i produced is just a merely 169 words... essay is 2000 words.. fuck! i nid more time...
more fucking time man.. hope tmr the skul will burnt down... n all the lecturers will have to pass all of us. y? boz they lost all the datas... no way to retrive it... damn... im dreaming

shitty day

2007-04-03T07:22:00.000-07:00

today.. went early to skul to take the product shooting.. guess wad... its kinda hard to geth the perfect lighting.. then worse... the whole well nt whole but ha;f of the studio section became a club... phi was dancing like a whore man.. i tink if he goes to gay bar. sure kena grind n then worse kena poke ass... hahaha.. best dancer man... well he can dance better than mi man.. hahah better dun wear skirt n bra when we go club together oke... btw... mit him todae a while.. to pass him our beloved doll DEDE KIANG... he went back todae.. the chinese CHIN MING is this wek i tink so he got to go back to TB to pray with the parents... well... kinda will miss him... @#$ wit a rather pissed n SIAN look... I left afterwards... @#$ decided o go #$%^^^PO$#% i hope u'l do great ther... mayb too lazy to apply SIM so mite as well just get the engineering course.. gud then can 12343445 rem i told u.. ratio is 1:10 gud luck.. i tink frm todae onwards. i will stop mentioning @#$ n world PEACE..
im nt cracking my brains out to think shit abt the bloody essay... damn it... ls help mI!!!!

not so blue in this monday

2007-04-02T19:20:00.000-07:00

wel.. im really yhinking hard on writing the title of the blogs... its always so boring.. i cant think of aniting kinky n mayb humourous...

finally finished in design... thnk menaka for helping mi subtracting the path of my headline.. damn...
todae, i read sumting in the 8 days magazine... abt the EMO kid nowadays... okay o be pretty honest.. i actually dont knw wad EMO means untill like ending of last year.. damn.. canu imagine ple are talking abt those EMO eMO EMO shit n i dun even undrstand???? then i figured out it was the COOL slang for EMOTIONAL. damn la... back to the article.. Paul twohill was interviewed... he said sum shit abt being stupid for teens nowadays to actually cut thir wrist.. u knw the trend.. since i was in secondary... this fren of mine.. she will cut herelf whenever she feels angry.. i was like wtf.. she s pretty but her arms... she cut all the way... frm the wrist to the arm line... damn... i tot it was then.. eh.. the trend actually came back again.. or mayb it never stops... hu cares... this person... a dear person tt i care the most. did tt stupid act too.. by cuttting her wrist.. for wad? for fun?
she just said she is stresssed becoz her frens dislikes her...cutting yerself isnt the fucking rite way to turn to... its ur fucking body. love yer body... love yerself... if u dun love yerself hw are u goin to love others? think abt it--- seems like im getting out of point here... oke. back to the topic.. n now we have the new acronyms-isit the correct spelling? im so fucking lazy to check the dic.. GST stands for Generation Stupid Teens. ya i totally agree... teens are so hard to pleased... so pampered and spoilt... wan all the fuckng attention all the time... ya mayb one dae when all of them grow up... they mite look back n think back. they mite realise how STUPID they are... i gotta stop thinking abt her. stop stop...
im so wanting to concentrate on my fucking essay.. which is due on thurs.. can dun gv mi unnecessary shits? dont bother mi pls... if u hadnt tell mi aniting... i wouldnt knw aniting.. n u would have go all the wae.. im tired.. really tired of all these.. IM trying to help... but if u cant help yerself. then i cant do aniting... everyone has their limits. i guess mine is up. i cant do this animore. does anione realise these few posts.. i've been talking abt this particular person alot...
i hope one dae #$% will read it n or mayb be touched- well impossible.. mayb hate mi more rather than appreciate wad shit i have done to help.. mayb nt help but pressurized @#$.
god bless in all the shits u do.
(since when i started to be C@#$%^&*. damn it...)

april fool

2007-04-01T05:22:00.000-07:00

1 april is aprill fool.. dono which fool actually made this dae a day to punk ple.. hahah. my first punk.. success..i will hwrite down the whole fucking conversation i had with the victim in the next blog later... its was quite fun.. n im like so into it t he actually believe.. damn it.. i tink i can bcum hollywood actress alrady... damn.. ani production company wans to take me?

went to queens again.. todae cooked japanese curry fer them.. i went there just to pass my darling boyfren his certs... then end ud quarell.. i tot again h's PMS... just wooke up symtoms. hate him.. im just suggesting him tt he shld broing back sum of his stuff onb the way back. so oterdae he wouldnt have to bring so mani things back. i was wrong.. mayb i shldnt have opend my mouth just nw... damni so regret it.. he was practically so fucking angry--i seriously donno for wad.. he damn pety.. oh god y do u have to BLESS me wit such a petty, headstrong anoying bitch... can u at least bless mi with sumone hu will pay more attention n bear all my unreasonable-nes. n crazy ness.. oh.. how i hope he oculd tunr to tt one dae... or mayb another NEW man in my life? well probably.. perhaps-wel i actually never thought of tt..

smells fishy

2007-03-31T21:30:00.000-07:00

she started to smell sumting fishy... she tried to test mi out... she tot i told her bro abt the clubbnign n smoking shit...
ur fucking brother read the fucking msg on my fucking fone.. well i dun nid to announce to the whole world i knw.. its like hell...
its all for ur own good i would sae..
its sounds irritating i knw.. but just couldnt help i.. there's no other word i can think best rite nw...
after so many shit happened.. i realise one thing...
how my other sisters feel abt having a fucking sister like me...
ALL the REBEL shit i've been thru... all the shits... nw i finally can really feel it...
i treat her like my own fucking sister.. even better... my youngest sis dun gv mi probs.. so i dun have to worry- instead she is out there worrying abt mi all teh time.. damn.. sorry sis...

applying of skuls.
pls make an initiative to aply. instead of goin out n spend money y not just apply the shit foirst then play al u wan.. im nt trying to lecture here... i dont have the right to i knw.. but im just concern.. ur BIG brother is actually very concern abt u... he always ask mi shits abt u.. do u knw?

if ur dad cals, how am i goin to tell him? of coz i said nothing...
well, he knws everything.. but still the same isnt it.. mayb i shldnt have met ur bro so he wouldnt have read the msgs... n better yet no one knws...

***, i've been there done tt.. i was 16-17 once.. i knw.. curiosity kills the bloody cat.. just bcareful oke... i dun care if u hate mi or wad for spilling n ruining everything.. most impt ur trust... i just cant take it... i love n care for u.. i just dun wan ani shit happen to u...
peace out...

saturdae blues...

2007-03-31T21:20:00.000-07:00

i hate saturdae.. if it wasnt the submission is near.. i wouldnt hae care... i would have gone out man...
hate saturdaes without steppng my foot at orchard..
went to bras basah after work... went to art fren... wow.. did sum shopping.. buy few markers... eh.. payment time.. opps.. ur nets declined.. wtf.. im so fucking embaraassed to get the cahier girl to just cancel my tansaction...lucky todae nt alot ple.. damn it sia..
wetn to queens again... wanted to take money la of coz.. then he still slping... then watch finish the damn korean dvd still nt awake... i was just trying to balance my self.. so i sumhow pressed my elbow againts his damn flat tummy.. he goes... groaning...
fuck la.. i go home ar... hm hm hm.. wtf... h chase afte me of coz i push him away,.. damn irritating.." final push" CB la.. walk up to the lift... 2 hrs later...he msg mi sorry bobo.. sorry i dun buy it oke...
another msg.. bobo dad nids my diloma cert.. im goin to take it tmr.. wat the fuck.. hu cares abt his diploma fucking shitty cert from a NON recognised PRIVATE PART SKUL>> MDIS-- MOTHER DICK INSTUTION FOR SUCKERS. fuck ass la...
but less than 5 mins.. again-- mab im too kind-well im being too contradicting... i knw... slowly i pull out my bed drawer n took out his damn CERTS! im just too SOFT- well soft in way easily to gv in to.. fuck la...

2007-03-31T01:56:00.000-07:00

NIL

2007-03-30T23:39:00.000-07:00

NIL...
no msg... no nothing.. i miss him like hell.. just hope one day he mite do the " ZHI HUI"BF TODDS' way of.. ahem..." hehehe...miss him so much.. mayb he's just busy studying.. arrgh,, better dun tink too much...
damn it al ginette make us do alot shit man.. still nid to scan the bloody exercise n trace it one by one. fuck man.. waste time.. worse is she wans to c it on thurs.. which is the fucking day for our submission for visual essay...
damn it... life is fucking hard.. but nt living ur life is harder.. wad am i talking man... im such a copy cat the damn bloody fake cigarette ad.
tink colin is hot... his stubble mayb makes him hotter.
take pics with clasmates

damn i just have the hots for guys with stubble... hmmm.. love it... its really hot...
work todae.. curry favor actually damn busy todae.. making a 3000+++ a day is freaking alot la... my boss is damn irritating la...
mr chai yee wei... i was cooking the vege for staff meal... he sudd appear n wadthe heck he came n nag n nag.. tink he;s a bit hyper todae... mayb too busy then he's abit off... damn it... wads wrong wit his hair.. he look better in shorter hair... well can check out his blog... n frenster... www.singaporecritic.blogspot.com
he is also another bitch among the bitches... damn la he can talk shit abt the uncle tt irritate him in foodcourt la bla bla.. quite interesting though... same la like mi like to bitch ple.. bitch until lost a fucking best buddy.. hel i regret it,.. tink i must really careful in using words.. mayb nt tooo harsh la. harsh is fine but too much is nt

hate raining

2007-03-29T04:52:00.000-07:00

hate hate hate..super hate rainning...
colin was late for the lecture.. damn it.. let us wait...
lost my esprit umbrella.. hu ever took it.. damn it...
went to buy sum art stufff for tmr cls... met him for a while.. his dad gt him to buy this VALDA PASTELLIES for 50 cans... for sum high rank guy. hu cares... went to bugis to get 25 then funan another 25...
then after we separated.. he sai he wanted to go back n take a short nap.. eh.. ard 7pm i recieved his msg saying tt he;s miting his BATAM frens at orchard...
first thng came to my mind.. hu the fuck..its like we just separated an hr ago... n yet u didnt tell mi aniting. toto it suppose to be ur STUDY week? wadt he hell..." oh mthey just msg mi 30 mins ago" after tt incident. its really hard for me to trust him again.. i just cant go thru myself... damn it... i just msg him telling him tt i dun wan him lie ever again-mayb im being too much.. but still.. better take precaution.. i dun wan the latter found out tt he actually going out wit his old flame n huever NON-PENIS species... hell he just got angry n said i have friends regardles boys or girls... ya me too-i just wan to fuck him off man.. wad the hell.. he dun care.. fine... i never said aniting like oh u cant go watsever.. i just dun wan him to lie LIE LIE LIE fucking LIE again! u understand? we have no HONESTY in this fucking relationship... WE aRE done. u wan tt to hapen? i just dun wan to blow things up--- well i guess mayb all these, wad i wrote already blown thing up... hu cares... im still the unreaonable bitch tt u happen to be with.. too bad.. mayb just learn one thing.... ACCEPT the FACT tt im yer bitch. PEACE OUT

QUEENS again

2007-03-29T00:24:00.000-07:00

got up pretty early. im writing for yesterdae.. 28
first i got up i just got the inspiration n strait away write it down on my note book...
i will b doin AWARE for visual essay--hey ple dun copy ar...
finally i got wad i wan but still got to write alot shit...
well... todae was pretty tiring dae... went to skul c shuang2...
hey tink m very confident in wad i wan to do.. well mYB determine la instead of confident.. so shuang2 didnt sae much she just"hmmm okay. show mi the color visual on fridae.. "
hehehe
i tink tmr goin to chiong like hell fr the shuang2 first then spend the entire weekend craking my butt. el my brains out for the visual essay.. anione pls help mi do lei...

heavy downpour... still manage to take bus-actually wanted to take cab but bcoz print sum stuf in the morinig so left with o cahs only 3 bucks so no choice bu to take bus...

went to raffles city shoping centre grocery...
went to queens,,, n cook them nice dinner.. pasta with cream sauce n tomato sauce.. hmmm nt so bad,,, we made a cool watermelon smoothies n sum tempura stuff... of coz mess up the whole kitchen...

after finish kicking sum balls... the guys came back totally drenched in sweat... richard the belly dancer... welll more to a stripper came n pop by... so eveyone got to taste my sumptuous dinner....

i so miss him... we kiss for like a while... hmmm just love him-well mayb for a moment la.. hahaha

hate tuesdays

2007-03-28T00:18:00.000-07:00

im so fucking tired.. after cum back frm work.. mit kezia for a talk.. girl talk she's having sum shit probs la.. with herself actaully
more problem f herself rather than the relationship...
msg him.. PUTUS
mayb abit too harsh.. he was quite pissed off... mayb im too unreasonable n asking too much?
am i asking too much? i just wan a msg a day.. does it cost u alot of time? is the pain in the ass to u?
last wk when u wer having 3 papers u still have the freaking timr to msg mi online, sms bla bla.. but this wk is totally just studying for last paper.. well i knw must chiong for last paper.. but still its ike two days... u;ve been disapear... wad have u been doing?
really study?
i called u lst nite ard 1.30
u were playing com games...
DO i mean aniting 2 u?
im possessive, control freak gf u shld knw it bfore u wan to get back together...
i hate it when u totally heck care...
y other ple bf can get jealous u cant?
im nt comparing but its the fact... i dont even knw wad u r thingkin... mayb u already have sumone else
someone new. someone better.. wish u luck in yer xams then... n if u ever found tt someone hu u love more then pls tell me
i just wan a simple msg everydae.

dharmawan kiang

2007-03-27T00:32:00.000-07:00

i so miss him.. he's hving xams..
i so miss him...he's away frm hm...
i so miss him...invade to his fren plc to study...
i so miss him... wonder wad he's doin nw...
i so miss him... going to c him on wed probably
i so miss him... wanting to smell him
i so miss him... hoping his friend aris will stop smoking
i so miss him... wishing that he wun go back indo after xams
i so miss him... hoping he will stop his JAVANESE language... hate it...
i so miss him... hoping he would miss mi more
i so miss him... i hope he wuld pay more attention
i so miss him... i hope i c him everydae
i so miss him... wonder if he so miss mi too?
i so miss him.. hoping he would msg mi everydae. today he didnt
i so miss him... i hope i finish my visual essay by now
i so miss him... thx for helping mi in fruvi
i so miss him... can u cum here now?
i so miss him... i miss him
i miss dharmawan kiang

DIET

2007-03-26T08:17:00.000-07:00

im nt bragging here or wad.. mayb FAT ple will feel humiliated n sad n worse depressed...
i found a quick way of losing weight...
starve urself
slp with yer stomach empty
do not eat rice
welll mayb if u can take it u can sign a contract with the bulimic association.
puke after each meal... - best if u eat so FULL up to the neck already n puke all out... it feels like dumping a huge crap tt has been stuffing ur stomach for a week...
if u feel hungry after puking-which normally i feel.. try not to eat.. just slp n starv all the way till morning...
treat urself few ice creams.. well mayb 2 in a wk...
TRY to exercise- it burns fat faster... in full speed.
drink lots water and eat lots fruit...hungry, eat fruit or drink a glass f LOW fat milk
eat at foodcourt or hawker only... do not eat at fast food resto
only order fish n tauge- beansprout and very little rice...
IF u cant eat spicy, learn how to eat it boost ur fucking metabolism...
Last of all do not think wit ur stomach.. tink with ur not so working brain.

results= i lost 2 kg in a wk. n i can fit nicely to my-once-super-tight-levis jeans

mad abt mac

2007-03-26T08:13:00.000-07:00

wats wrong wit mac now?
so mani ple are usng it... the milky white seems to be the hottest nw... which is the one im using hehehe... with the camera n bl bla.. best for design students.. but still i c sum spoilt n rich SMU students carrying it.. it like wad the fuck.. its nt tt u cant use mac. its just so not matching.. business students PLS stick to ur PC microsoft shit... n MACintosh is only for DESIGN student... wad can u business ple do wit mac... when the fucking first time they deliver to yer hs- u knw spoilt kids buy stuff online... n u discover.. there is NO MICROSOFT WORD< POWER POINT.. wad the heck . all u care is the bloody COOL design... damn mayb u guys shld thank us DESIGN-ERS hu actually made those brainies to come out with apple mac..
shld b grateful...

maid

2007-03-26T08:05:00.000-07:00

okie lets talk abt my maid... she came to our hs 4x a wk to clean up...
damn she damn fucking greedy n RAKUS-indo for greedy... eat like nv eat b4.. wat the fuck if she wants sumting she can just tell us n mayb ask for permission first,, we will give her, its nt tt we forbid her to eat ani shit.. its just gross la.. maid eat our chocolate-i suspect she ate our ROYCE too.. then pineaple tarts, cereal, cakes, lays-which she so generously left like the bits of the chips n staple it again like it never happen b4..pls lo.. its like so obvious its totally FLAT n EMPTY... damn la so fat already still eat like nobody business... got to take her pic n post it when she came this weekend...

groupie

2007-03-25T08:25:00.001-07:00

ple hu i can live without hahaha.. dun b sad.. huhuh... hahahaa love u guys

her

2007-03-25T08:07:00.000-07:00

i love her
i care for her
i treat her like my own-of course sister nt my own child.. plz...
whenever theres problem.. she will cum to me
talk to me.. i feel so much like her own siblings...
cant believe we end just like this?
isit bcause of ME? myself being a shitty person...
she went to have fun after the xams... fine..
too much expose to the "dark side of the world" isnt good.
mixed with the fucking wrong company?
start smoking n clubbing xessively? damn it.. i hope i can stop her
i cant...
she wouldnt listen...
she told mi she njoys clubbing infact she loves clubbing
i had no choice...
his father kept pushing
i dont knw wad to do
He saw my messages on my fone.
its the end
he told his dad abt what he knw
sister got scolded
i betray her trust
im sorry
i care for u
but u must love urself
pls...
discontinue...
i want ur old self...

finally got the correct password n username

2007-03-25T08:05:00.000-07:00

damn it...
life has been miserable.. year 2007.. sux.. hate it frm the begining...
so mani stuff to do.. frm skul work to personal shitty life...
lets begin our "bitching moments"...

big news

2006-12-05T19:40:00.000-08:00

well im still such a kay pioh n busy body damn it.. i couldnt believe it... herry actually now seeing yuet ying? it was out of nowhere they sudd got together... hmmm
still rem hw mani boys got this little big crush on this hk girl with big eyes...
frm iwan, dharmawan, augustine, hu else? there would b a guy in every class has a crush on her... well...
i rem she initiate every call to these ple... begging them to teach her their country's language.... wel.. i tot it didnt buy them.. hey.. all of them almost got fooled.. oh poor guys...
and herry was the wow... for the girls... a very nice guy, suave, tall... n smart.. hu doesnt wan tis guy?
tell mi!!!! few girls would secretly looked @ him, tailing him-mayb.
he's got a pretty steady gf in secondary skul tink they went out for quite sumtime... quite long infact. a pretty, fair malaysian nw in SMU.
well... wish herry all the luck.. n may u both happi n lasting...

Sitex PC show at EXPO

2006-12-03T07:40:00.000-08:00

well.. habent have the time to really sit down-well lie down to start tying all shits..PC show last day. damn tiring.. just for tt $100 a day. have to kill n break my leg...
damn... no choice for the sake of my 7.1megapixel olympus digi cam tt ive been eyeing for sumtime.
well... weiping worked for sony, eric worked for sony ericson, hazel work for erm cant quite rem...
not so bad i sold more than 20 models of the damn bloddy hard disk cam corder...
i lost my voice.
apple GIRLS are getting damn $1000 for the bloody hell 4 days show.. n we bloody hell worked our asses off. pleading n kissing our custs' asses off... the girls, well just "PAI SUI" at the show... sdistributing flyers.. they r getting so much than us double le... hw can.. onli wear abit skimpy... a halter n short skirt n an irritating boots la... damn it i tink i have to got tt fucking job next pc show man.. a $1000 in ur pocket just like tt wahahah.. tmr yen goin krabi with her skul frens yay... almost a wk i will b slping alone.. better though no one quarell with mi no one gv mi tt fucking irritating face. no one nag behind. wow best... just love tt alone feeling at nite.. i can turn off the lights earlier...
i miss him so much nw... habent seen him for like 3 days...

queens

2006-11-29T04:31:00.000-08:00

a long damn boring day at queens
damn doin damn notning tapao them food.. carls junior..
he damn annoying.. didnt call or msg mi the whole day yesterdae.. todae see mi oso the saem.. damn i hate being with dharmawan animore. it bores mi... i hope to just kick him onb the butt and knuck his head real hard.. damn boring la todae again wasted.. a whole damn day.. the more i hate life.. tmr worse.. it starts my feet strainning day.. i got to stand damn hrs to earn tt cheque huhuhuhu i wan to die le.. i hate it... pls help mi!
he tried braking dance damn irritating la. well he tried his best

while studying, he wrote sumting on my leg...
so swit but anoyying though

hate life

2006-11-28T07:22:00.000-08:00

damn it...
im living like a cheap low life...
been saving hell to buy my darling a special present.. nid a damn gud pay job.. anione got job lobang...
visit xiaxue blog almost everydae.. she damn bitchy la.. wah itink i lose to her man.. she can bitch abt anione aniting pratically...
well.. i bitch n ended up hurting ple.. n well coward enuf to actually deleted.. well i cant call my self pro.. damn it...
damn boring.. live is like hell i miss skul...
miss the hell time, the damn load of the shit projects...
holiday is like being in the jail.. so boring do the same fucking thing everyday...
uffy is quitting... cheese is quitting.. well. it seems like curry favor will b bye bye soon
all the "lao jiao" gone.. n all the shitties newbies will cum n rot the place...
i hate life...
ani rich-dying-cant have sex ah pek cum n take mi...
i just nid an american express and a pent house.. well a BMW 7 series as bonus can already
pink-if GOD is a DJ, life is a dance floor.. how i hope it would b like tt

hard rock cafe

2006-11-27T04:32:00.000-08:00

went for the damn trainning at intercon hotel at bugis
bara bro kanan was conducting the trainning its a2 hrs hi-get to knw session..
mit up with my darling went to watch tenacious D
well pretty hilarious.. along singing involved n fuck fuck fuck... lots of fuck words..
well then we went to hard rock chill out-tt was the initial plan..
then when we reach there, bob,n brian order their late supper. a steak n salad well the rest f us having this alcoholic drinks...
hey... they have live band-well im so kuku bird,. didnt knw there was one...
then they start clearing up the tables in the middle for dance floor. well pretty shit songs.. they pnli played the 2 latest songs,, well promiscuous girl is pretty shit so 10 mins ago. then my love by my boyfren JT. wel... alot minas n muds there.. well nt to br racist or prejudiced here.. but still its like the party for the malays la.. all malays man. onli a table of indian-saree-unties, few ang mohs.. n hey all whole lot malays filling up the damn space.. well the dance floor was so empty waiting for the people to hit it... pls no one was there to even dance. well i drag my dearest beloved boyfren to the dance floor made a few moves- guess he was bit embarassed he finally go back to our table. well reg, nophie odd all just stone there doin g nothing.. well tinks it would b the last time i will be stepping my beautiful-red painted nails foot on to thier dance floor man...
damn it...

Saw III

2006-11-24T09:21:00.001-08:00

saw III
well its rated bloody R21. damn it hu the hell can watch.. well alot though.. but for us minor-heheheh.. hu has been a true devoted fan... how to continue like tt? how to even buy a bloody ticket to watch tt bloody show. damn lucky this world "pirated" word still exist. people hu doesnt have much time, those hu r underage can actually purchase it frm msia or indo... cheap cheap. a disc can watch with whole fucking family.
well i've just watched it. pirated well still so dark n subtitle sux. soyabean cake. well
really rated R21. damn gore.. super nice.. 4/5 stars
damn it huever is the fucking script writer/director,producer and sum dog shit head hu produces this fuckiong movie.. thumbs up man... if really this kinda f shit do happen out ther. well mayb out ther nt in Singapore of course.. mayb in those places in the west.sum anone city, virginia island sum shit deserted forest...
all those BASED ON TRUE fucking story.. all frm those cities. city of the dead.sum psycho animal just wouldnt quit doing all those shits-texas chainsaw:the beginning. well the title already damn copy cat the exorcist: the beginning
wad the hell. the 2nd one was gud la i have to admit. but this one hell no... story so-the-same-boring O show. damn it..

Edison chen is one of People's sexiest man

2006-11-24T09:03:00.000-08:00

HK- Hong Kong actor singer Edison Chen who made his Holywood debut recently alongside Sarah Mihelle Gellar in the horror film The Grudge 2, is listed among the world's sexiest men in People's magazine's most recent issue. Chen, 26. a B-lister in HK has seen his stock rise since crossing over Hollywood. People magazine also said in a brief item on Chen that he was collaborating with producer/rapper Kanye West.Chen is scheduled to open for West when the Grammy winner performs in Hong Kong next Tuesday.

interview at intercon

2006-11-22T04:32:00.000-08:00

bara working at intercontinnental hotel. well went interview with jeff... hope we can get the job... hehehe...
mit kiang, he pased mi my passport n waited for mi. hmmm... love him like hell.. nowadays hav tt feeling f seeing him everyday. even mitting everydae is like helll... quarell nonstop.
the baby in the hs today
so noisy ar.

tmr working agn. damn tired. my baby might be goin back this fri.
sat trainning at 2pm sharp. well.. its kinda shitty la have to cancel my curry favor shift... if cant get the job i tink got to burn the hotel down

21 november

2006-11-21T07:35:00.000-08:00

woke up too early.. thx to his early msg...he had no where to go. he came here a while then we went to city hall raffles city eat bk. todae ther's bit shit ahppening in the mall.. the barbie thingy
got a pic.. well nt a clear one.. wad do u xpect frm a vga cam fone...

monday the 20th

2006-11-20T04:26:00.000-08:00

i woke up it was 9, slept until 10.30 just to figure out tt no one's at home.
last day of O level papers... god i miss barathi already...
went over to darling plc. found him dead on the bed. with my chucky doll.
he slept till 2.3pm. damn lazy la.. damn guys are fucking lazy n so slp-goer... phui la asshole... wan to slp til the sun burnt their asses still nt up yet...he dilly dally until 4 plus then take shower. then... went to vivo city again.. well its the disadve f living near there la. its like 5 bus stops onli. so again. we went to makan... CARLS junior again...
tis month is like feasting burger.... damn im on bloody hell diet n worse force those harmful toxic to my body...
i wan diet...

happy day steamboat

2006-11-19T20:27:00.000-08:00

happy boat steamboat
it seems like almost every sunday is the food day... food outing day with them.. last week we went to eat JR burger... this wk we went to happy pay steamboat at tan qwee lian rd... ate till 9.30 then went hm.. left the laptop at his place.
i ve decided to be 46 kg in 18 days.. have listed down all the RULES strict one to follow. hope i can lose tt bloody 3 kg off my arms, thighs n ofcoz the bit " 3 x meat" off my tummy.

007

2006-11-19T20:24:00.000-08:00

james bond movie, casino royale. not so bad i rate 3.5/5 star.
the male lead well nt handsome, short. hw can he compare to the previous star pierce brosnan. well he's old, n hot...
the bond girl. worse... take those terrorist country girl to b the bond girl? well the indian lady he had sex with was hot.
well we saw jefferson n the gf.. well they've been together for wuite long...

GARY

2006-11-18T09:03:00.000-08:00

gary
in RP
18 yrs old this yr
he is another lun's fren's fren..well got to sae after the tze hui the candy boy appears, it seems like my fetish for "barbie boys" became more " menjadi-jadi"
im a psycho biatch, like an old auntie browsing the men's oh no its boys catalog on the escort website. damn...

brownie baking day

2006-11-17T04:25:00.000-08:00

met barathi at ntuc 11am
shop for ingredients... for her bf bdae on sun...
so weet rite baking brownie for him...
btw we like habent met for ages la.. strait away when i c her.. i start updating her with stuff.. n hws my life in skul has been goin...
well we kinda talk non stop frm 11 till ard 5pm...
well the baking thing didnt work la.thx to my cheap oven
cheap cheap till cant even bake a cookie la
wasted so much time n money ...
waiting n grunting at the same fucking time la...
he caem todae.. to sleep.. he slept till 5pm though... i was out in the kitchen n living rm with my bara.. talking n checking out the brownie..
damn i tink i have to invest in better oven... well mean i hv to fork out my own saving for it... damn it la. btw next sun its dad's bdae... mayb make him a card... heheheh.. wanted to go out f sg so much.. mayb msia will do... just wan to out of sg.. n nt shopping la mayb just go makan c2 walk2 n take pictures...
we went to vivo agn. and again carls junior!!! saw xhenting nov's bf.

a day b4 i turn 20.....continue

2006-11-16T09:36:00.000-08:00

the day i turned 20
received a fw msgs frm frens.. hapi bdae...
so touched when bobby, aris, reg, oddy all actually CALLED n wish hapi bdae.. well even my best friend dun do tt...
then i received a msg frm daniel. he was wishing n actually otw to my hs to pass mi sumting...
i was shock of course.. welll been bitching abt him so much n asking for forgiveness along the time. well. he actually had amnesia i thougt or mayb head concussion tt he forgot that im the person hu mayb u people call BACKSTABER - SWORD FISH
well he bought mi a shirt frm topshop--well the same shirt i've been eyeing.. n a biscuit can hellokitty...
damn. dear daniel gave mi hello kitty. wahahah...
well really touched. at tt moment of time i just feel so much like killing my self. digging a hole n just stuffed my head in. so ashamed of myself. i have hurt my very best fren.
nicole, where is ur conscience?
when u needed help the most hu is there for u? daniel
when u r heart broken hu is ther for u? daniel
when u nid sumone to talk to hu do u turn to? daniel
when u have the hottest gossip hu do u tell first? daniel
how can turned ur back n start stabbing him at the heart?
damn it
im so sorry daniel...
i messed up our frenship.
thx for actually gving anothr chance- well r u? im nt so sure actually
i hope everyting will gets better.. well perhaps not...
he is closr to ivy them all.. our cls. its like 3b n 3f
well im nt jealous but stil a cls outing bcum very publicity. guess i tink too much. thx for everyting daniel.

no more piercings

2006-11-16T07:48:00.000-08:00

a real trauma
after tt nice piercing i had on my left ear.. almost lead mi to deaf-- well well nt tt serious though i exaggerated abit.. hehehe
went to c doc in the middle of e nite... got him to take out the stud n squeeze out all the shit hell...
its swollen like i got sum dieaseas damn disgusting la
if i wait animore longer tink my whole ear will b amputate damn it... nw much more better...
lucky didnt go to the briefing todae...
onli 15 mins.. n its stil the same abt tyhe same shit.,,, cls will b spliting...

soccer buais

2006-11-14T06:08:00.000-08:00

sunday its soccer day
sports day for MEN
we went to c them play..
redhill comunity club...
normal soccer court
sum f the guys brought socccer boots la.. heaard them say its grassy grass land.. so they brought boot.. eh.. its the cement type soccer court.. my baby got blister though...

.then in the middle of the match.. suddenly we heard loud thump... car acident
car plate... 2369

damn it.. so scary man.. then along the way back.. again ther is motorcycle accident.. it seems 12 nov really an inauspiscious day man...

he sent mi home as usual.. tehn we alight at lau pa sat for dinner... satay.,.. fatman satay.. the best.. is written ther la but nt so nice after all..

none

2006-11-14T06:04:00.000-08:00

wel went to vivo city 3 days in a row.. damn it.. n ate carl's junior 3 dats in a row.. a big hole in my pocket but filled my tiny stomach.. damn it,., im FAT
FAT
the doughnat n carl's burger are making mi a super size me...hate it..
watch the covenant the guy is cute.. kaylip... but the movie kinda off though... underworld is so much better la i would sae...
covenant more to the teenagers college with superpower ass...
ahaha the girl is pretty shit hot too...
walked past the the power station.. bshind vivo.. st james power station which recently turned to CLUB singapore biggest club..habent went ther n c c...
heard frm redza e place kinda happening.. played those rnb hip hop songs,,, hehehe got to go man!!!

J.co

2006-11-14T05:09:00.000-08:00

tis makes mi fat...
\totaly faT
FATS EVERYWHERE
from face, arms, tummy n tighs n ASS
bUt stil;l u cant resist it...
damn fucking delicious
cheap cheap
1 dozen... 12 pieces heaven make doughnat...
onli for Rp45000 which is equivalent to s$ 8

Lim tze hui

2006-11-11T21:31:00.000-08:00

$20003
auction

masak2an

2006-11-11T19:04:00.000-08:00

reach sg ard 2plus.. the q damn long la raining sumore.. these days reaining like no body business.. btw wen to aris their place.. cooking... welll really 4 sehat 5 sempurna... wahahaha eat till our stomach burst... thn we watch texas chainsaw the beginning. well nt tt nice as exopected it to b.. bit disapointed though...

dizzy thurdae

2006-11-11T19:02:00.000-08:00

went to his place in the morning to c whether he's alrite...
he's got hangover la... hahaha then he sent mi to harbour front,.. i went back to batam to renew my ic.. damn ma fan la...

birthday 8 november 2006

2006-11-11T18:41:00.000-08:00

hapi bdae to mi... woke up pretty early went to queens.. tot they sae celebrate cut cake for nophie... when i first arrive at the door... happy birthdae song was sung and blackforest was held by him. so swit... surprise. i heard frm reg saying tt he planed this for pretty long... heheh thx darling.. then we cut cake take pics and then stayed a while then go hm... changed... 8pm reach fullerton hotel.. we ate the $58+++buffet.. nophie paid for our dinner... fullerton 6 star hotel... quite disappointing though no shark fin lobstersmall.. terrible la nt really woth the money... then zouk.. worse terrible.. we stayed until 1 plus then the guys all puke like mad... he almost fight with the ang moh hu luaghed at aris when he puke at the side of the grand copthrone waterfrint... hahhaa he shouted" FUCK U! HU DO U TINK U R? THIS IS SINGAPORE. GO BACK TO UR COUNTRY! CB!" so embarasing la.. even the bouncer asked us to geth them to the cab asap.. damn la kena chansed out by zouk...
reach hs place. he vomit la still say he nt drunk la ass la.. im like take care of him until he really knock out n slp... i went hm ard 4 la...

a day b4 i turn 20

2006-11-07T06:41:00.000-08:00

passed up the portfolio at last.. tmr still nid to go back skul take back the file.. damn it 10am man..
well we R fine!
he msg mi last nite. everything so normal.
came at 1plus.. took nap. im outside living rm doin sum packaging stuff n dvd,
maid came to clean up n iron clothes.
went to orchard.. shopping.didnt get theshoe i wan top shop $ 66... no more size damn...
he bought a shirt...
well damn tiring la survey shopping...
hje is like trying so mani shirts todae.. 10 over shirts i tink.. here's one of the changing rm
guys la normal. must survey first b4 buying tings.. nt like us girls c nice-like-buy-no nid tink- no nid try(sumtimes)
hehehe
gossiping time...
saw daniel at far east plaza... with gues hu.................................................
IVY
eh i rem todae no sch wad no cls ahem... the 2 f them sure have sumting2 hehehe
all the best wish u guys gud luck... well the feeling is abit weird n differebnt when i saw tt red stripes-topman tee man walking towards us n imediately, DANIEL-- RUN bitch RUUUUUNNNN...
wahahaha tink he didnt saw mi he was too busy talking the girl walking bside him.
well mayb hwe did saw out back view well fuck care.. dun gv a shit damn.
better he didnt c us. i dont even knw hw to react. say hello? well or just "tiao" him n walk away like a bitch ah lian?
ivy bside him i kinda noe her so its kinda rude if i dun HELO -IF we happen to bump to each other fc-fc
well fuck. "fuck care-i dun gv a damn-u bitch" . its like constipate for days. u cant get the shit shit out. so irritating u just feel like killing urself n so fucking moody.
well i really hope Daniel can find a gf soon!!!!! well i dun wan to create another unecessary prob all the best la

Portfolio

2006-11-05T19:53:00.000-08:00

submission of port folio...
damn it.. woke up damn early la., didnt even have the time to bathe,... go skul n print,., damn orinting shop... i tot its a first cum first serve... im regular oke,,. damn it la.. i hate it.. end up all the efforrt of waking up early all went to the drain,...
damn it... i got to take mc and pass up super early tmr 9.30 in skul staff rm...
had an afternoon nap.// damn it still damn tired...
i hate tt mr small butt la.. asshole. hu he tink he is... no one can stop mi frm doing asniting i wan... i hate it... go to hell...
i hope u rot in hell... y is always his frens n frens n frens... u go marry ur frens then..

todae again... world war 3...
we quarel again... he wanted to take a break... or mayb its better. if things dun work out dun force the flour in.
i knw this logic...
but still i dont knw y its is so unreasonable of mi...
creating unneccesary problems... with bf or even friends.. i tiink i have to c a psychiatrist... damn man im sick... i tink im sick in the head...
pls help...
i dun wan ani shits to happen again..
i just dont knw wad i wan. it seems like everyting he does just not right. i donno y i ALWAYS feel tis wae... hate it man.. we quarell for the slightest matter. it all started with mi n mi n mi n ME again....
im tired but i DONT knw hw to stop it.
pls help. i wan top change but it just damn hard... the damn shit feeling of the broken vase cum back again
im scared. im afraid.
i dun wan to lose..
i wan to change...
change change not for the worst.. for the better...
pls help! im dying of panadol already.
i just got the xcite ment seeing ple angry mayb but no.... im scared. when anione start to get angry worse.. i will get angrier. damn nicole... u shld b called an asshole not nicole.
im trying to forget something else but i just cant.

super sunday

2006-11-05T19:37:00.000-08:00

got ang pao frm dad n mum,,, heheh
then went to his place...
his always sitting position when reading newspaper.

bought nophie's bdae gift...
ate carl' junior... damn fave...
so full la... couldnt finish it... damn tired... woke up too early...

kelvin chalet at down town east...

2006-11-03T23:10:00.000-08:00

woke up early in them morning.. went over to his place to wke him up. we then went over to aris place at queenstown... study well sumkinda project work... alll of us.. later goin to kelvin's bdae... bpught him ck perfume. btw just nw we went to eat lunch opp his condo... well sae this young geek smoking damn it its like action damn it i tink if sum ahbeng sae him smoking like that i tinmk he will end up in the hospital wahahah

chit chat with them...so fun doin project at their place... its like a grp project.. well i manage to finish 85 per ent of the portfolio there.. even though its abit noisy and kiang kept singing nonstop but still we can finish our qwork on time.. anwae kiang oso finish his work on time... he manage to finish POM project... yay.. no nid to stay at aris place till 2 am plus already.. he's been staying up late at his place till past midnite over 3 dasy i guess... doin the endless project--of coz la. halfwae thru watch tv, paly cs, watch porn bla bla.. buy beer hw to finis on time like tt...
talked abt the next wed plan.. our bdaes...
btw aris wants to go DXO well i prefer zouyk though.,. i guess all my frens wouldnt wanna go dxo...
well aris will open martell and tower... so its pretty shit... tink all the guys will b fucking drunk.. hahaha... aniwae...
nophie settle the dinner... i settle the movie... pretty shit man... ahhah perfect... btw ard 7 plus we reached kelvin's chalet at downtown east..
abent been to the place for like... erm.. last visit was sec 2 which is like yr 2001 so its like 5 yrs.. wowo.... ya alot things changed been renovated.. bla bla.. went there a while then we go off after cutting cake n taking pics...

tze hui

2006-11-02T20:30:00.000-08:00

wei lun's fren damn cute....

friday nite

2006-11-02T20:23:00.000-08:00

last nite walked past rafles city shoping mall...

nice xmas tree well a month to go to xmas sg so damn kiasu
couldnt slp last nite...
HEY HEY to all the readers...
i write wad i wan i dun SYMPATHY frm anione...
its damn irritating la when it sae i write sum shit so that my bf will treasure mi more.. wad the hell i tink he will broke up with mi. wat sympathy? nonsense...

2 november

2006-11-01T22:18:00.000-08:00

talked to daniel last nite.. things aint gotten ani better., i had insulted him. n it had taken too long... i drag it too long b4 an apologising.. well after this.. i lost a friend. a friendship tt well actually quite mean alot to me. its over nw... well abit grief but i asked for it... i deserve that
after this then i realise tt bitching is really a BIG damn problem... i shld have seen it earlier so this matter wun occur... well too late...
i guess i just have to treasure frenship more than aniting nw...
well daniel... is the first one to confront me.. well u r weird.. wad the helll.. all my life never no one ever said tt...
for him mayb its a big blow.. in his lofe rite nw. i insulted him enuf... played enuf and humiliated enuf.. i dun ask for aniting i just wan to apologise thats it... it up to u whter to forgive or nt...
well. todae.. rushing for port folio... damn it... alot stuff nid to do n plan....
tmr goin watch movie yay,,,, finallyl after 2 absent saturdaes in the cinema seat... finally got the time to warm the seat up.... hehehe

website design

2006-10-30T20:05:00.000-08:00

webby design... i hate flash... damn it...
all the softwares r damn hard to fill in... damn it... btw manage to finish... todae lun bdae bbq at ecp.. again.. hehehe...

went to skul../. presentation...both my packaging n illustration class 2 upper.. hehehe damn hapi...

daniel wore the shirt we bought for him.. hehe he look gud.. well just sae he look gud in red.. hehehe

went to bbq... lun bade.. this guy name tze hui...
he gave nmi an ICE ring

damn cute.. wait for novia to upload the pics...

damn.. we quarell again todae
its like a MUST to quarell everydae...dman its all my fault
i tink i have to attend anger management cls.
we quarell in the public.
at tt moment.. i felt like digging a hole to put my head in it..
tink its karma.. always whenever we saw couple quarelling in the public we wil b like.. " wah so embarassing...bla bla." eh, didnt knw it is my turn nw.. mayb other ple will b saying n commenting the same stuff tt i ever did b4...
after that. sumting felt so strong tt i have to apologise to daniel
i called him n just say a SORRY.
thst nt e end of the story he said we talked after he got hm.. it was abit too late.. so i tink i will call him tmr.. ya hope everything wii b fine.. ya certain things cant b the same again but try...
i WILL change.. damn it... if nt.. pls confiscate my BK, atm card, handfone and my lappy... damn it...

red stoberi nail polish

2006-10-30T04:47:00.000-08:00

woke up damn late...
12pm to b exact...
eat
painted my nails red stoberi
did a paper bag for lun bdae gift..
then go to lib...
went to dave place again.. fort he second time... damn it..
finally finish the website thingy.. damn it.. im so dumb
thx dave...
he didnt msg mi todae... hate it when he said" im busy la, doin my project" at least a msg wun die rite i guess... damn it i hate him todae...
he's having test tmr... hmm tts the reason? hate it...
todae.. a day wasted... doin noting productive...

girlfriend-nsync

sorry eh daniel..
damn till nw i still cant apologise.. still b a coward writing on blog.. apologise.. nt sincere i knw.. but at least i have the thought of apologising.. damn it cant belive im goin to b 20 soon n still childish and unreasonable...

haloween party

2006-10-28T04:20:00.000-07:00

haloween party is todae..
damn tired.. came back frm work.. working is damn tiring la
tis afternoon curry hs was packed... we dun even have the time to rest..
my head was cracking thx to last nite show on the channel 8 "the ghost lantern" i watched it till 2am.. damn it.. made me even more fatigue n no mood to do aniting...

damn it.. all the ple tt i msg no one actually wanna go to the party..
ya mayb its abit last min tingy la...so cant blame anione..
or mayb its karma... im such a bitch,... its the karma nw.. no fren frendless..
1 thing im good at onli knw hw to bitch ple... damn it.. mayb all the people hu's been bitched by mi will ya cursing mi like hell
tts y my life has never been lucky
never won a lucky draw.. never won aniting... damn it...
im such a loser
still caling other ple loser
damn it
tonite goin cocolatte at the gallery hotwl at robertson quay.. nt sure wad to wear... mayb wearing the jersey football jersey 1 whole set with the boots on.. hehehe
dman it todae shopping for weilun's bdae...
i will post the pic of the hsirt tt we bought him.. after his bdae..
itsnothing expensive or aniting tt is WOW.. its just simple... damn lazy to choose la
this month gonna b broke again..
next month worse...
his buddy n his frens.. bdae on 8 the nov which is the same dae as his gf.. damn.
it nt onli 1 tt has the same bdae but 2
n worse.. 6 n 7th, his fren bade.. so total 5 ple bdae to b celebrated.. n gifts...
damn it...
i hope i own an AMEX...
pls anione... ani uncles wan to "pao" book" mistress... damn it

MOS haloween party
went to MOS damn can u believe it.. 20 year old--well almost 20 first time goin club damn it.. im so damn kuku
MOS was damn it crowded yesterdae n alotp le were dressing up.. haloween.. damn tink next yr must rent costumes.. eveyone looked so gud.. hehehe
met cindy n zhi kuan there...
met cindy fren-- hon ming hu happen to be macphersonians.. peer leader.. damn it... went back at ard 3+ damn tired...

he called mi at 4.30 drunk.. again..
iwent to his place in the afternoon to c wheter he is alrite.. then happen to b wad? his wrist.. stamped X2 damn it he went to pub with samantha, elaine, julia n his uncles.. damn it.. im damn angry la
he shld have told mi wad...
aniwae i dun have the rite to b...
im not much better.. grinning everywhere with diff ple damn im such a bitch... damn it...
didnt drank much.. tapao fren brendan open bottle... damn it...

last weekday of the week

2006-10-27T00:55:00.000-07:00

damn it.. woke up too early..10.30 waiting for his call
his msg.. nt miting aris n regina...
free n easy todae... damn bored...

he cut his hair... @ joemill
tink he's the best...
joemil at roxy quare level 1... his tel no is 96646071.. call him if u nid haircut...
damn i love his style... even though all he's wearing all fake... i mean fake LV shirt, fake D&G belt, bla bla.. name it,.. damn he's also a thai hu can speak mandarin and malay.. damn cool la..

then we went to funan the it mall
he wanted to c lappy so we went there took a few brochures... etc...
then i bought a game.. finally.. nt counterstrike... but THE SIMS... a game.. he recommended me tt game...
the powerful game that he played till 6am 3 days ago... damn it.. i tink i have to get it.. its $29.90
for this moment,,. i do agree with farhan.. mac damn lousy.. the games are so limited n few...

damn it.. i receive a call frm him
he said, his uncles are cuming at 7pm fuck la
im damn hot nw...
damn it im damnm gary rite nw... i hate it... i hate it to the core...

dear readers

2006-10-26T01:31:00.000-07:00

dear readers-- if anione really read this blog.. is ther? i dun tink so...
i tink i bore u guys with all the DANIEL DANIEL DANIEL...
its always abt him nhim n him... tink i like him so much tt i have to talk abt him everydae... bitching, apologising.. bla bla...
damn it.., i cant believe it...

constipation day...

damni forgot to talk abt it.. damn it..
habent shit for like 2 days...
mayb didnt drink enuf water...
listened to euphi.. tink water will help.. i drank a bottle just nw.. n now waiting for the rite moment...
stomach whirling nw.. soon..................hmmmm

shitted..

todae he gave me a surprise man..
its just a little surprise visit...
@ first he wasnt able to fetch mi on time.. then he suddenly appear in the bus.
i was.. shocked.. n happi of course...

he called at nite asking mi the harbourville hotel tel no
hw the hell i knw the tel no.. he tinks im the yellow page.. do i look like one?
his uncles r cuming to sgp mayb tmr... they goin to stay over...
again.. will go drinking.. damn it i hate it... y must he alwasy entertain them
he could but y must drink as much as they did? damn it i hate him...
mayb he should saty at hm n take care of the kids, do household chores etc n im the one hu makes the money
isnt tt just perfect
in tt wae i wun have to worry tt he will have affair etc animore...
mayb i shld chain him-- no no mayb i shld put the wire fence--with electric ard it so whenever he wans to fleet he cant...
damn.. im a psycho bitch.

constipation day

2006-10-26T01:14:00.000-07:00

thursday...
got up damn early...
submission of packaging..
my piggy finally is done...

ehhehe
btw didnt tok to daniel.. mayb i should.. may b not better
its better this wae..
he hates mi better rather than theo ther wae round...
well bitching is really my profession i guess...
damn it
still have portfolio n flash to finish...
argh... damn i hate lasalle.. i hate dsign skuls...
if onli i have studied harder... i mite... i donno end up wher?
i hate business...
mayb i will go hospitality or nursing.. i love to nurse sick ple.. taking care f them i dun mind wiping old ahpeks or old ah mah's ass.. i dun mind chaning diepers for babies...
heard frm charmaine.. alot hot young uni grads-doctor-to be intern at the hosp.. damn it.. when i was young. i use to dream abt being a nurse n marry a doctor.. how perfect...

now..im a fucking loser designer... hu mite just marry a businesman(HIM) of course n mayb have tons of kids---which is imposible though--i dun like children.. n mayb stay at hm, cook, clean hs, a stupid tai2 hu waits for the husband to cum hm every evening frm work... n being kept in the dark abt the affair he has outside... damn it.. i dun wan tt kind of life....
i wan to earn my own, n of course spend his... heheh
damn i wan a nunlimited credit card...
i nid an AMERICAN EXPRESS

damn it....i hate myself. i wan to change...

Ladies night

2006-10-24T21:21:00.000-07:00

damn woke up at 9 am sharp..

skipped cls again todae...

MCMCMCMCMCMC
went to his place... still slping...
c his face.. 20 yearl old already still hugging a doll to slp...

dman later goin macd to mAKAN. n then go printing... im so fucking tired...

damn it raining in the evening..
damn it...
went to his skul with his little siblings...

i tot the hickeys i had given him wasnt tt obvious at first.. but wow.. it seems like too much sucking hehehe
his classmates were teasing him abt it...

went to harbourfront.. waiting for his mom n dad to cum...
mei2 showed mi the bracelet she made herself...
i tried all them on

again.. reach hm late... got to do all the shits... rushing all the plastic bags stuff... spent 12.70 for e printing for packaging...

"last minute disaster"

2006-10-24T12:31:00.000-07:00

damn it.. damn last min.now is 3:36 am
im so fucking tired.. my eyes are red. head start to spin. stomach grumbling so loud like a thunder in e middle of heavy downpour...
damn my youngest sis yen ask mi to wake her up 20 mins later as she's going to study fro tmr watsoever quiz or tests... i woke her up.. even called her name numerous times... she did woke up n smiled at mi and then "THUMP... she slept again.."
here's her oily-slping face.

hari raya

2006-10-23T19:18:00.000-07:00

selamat hari raya...

dad n mom came early in the morning.. bringing mum most famous ketupat n curry... yum yum...

we went to macd for breakfast...

im meeting my sweet sweet later... goin to orchard i guess bringing his siblings along... tink we mite watch movie later...
noting much to do also.. the siblings got fatigue easily...
wow damn im using damn chim vocab.. hehehe
got to buck up already... been 2 yes since last i touch an english assesment

went to sakae sushi n makan( wheelock place) here's sum photos..

we quarell again.. he push mi damn hard.. in the public.. damn it its all my fault. i deserve it aniwae.. went to imax... cineplex... wathc dorm the boys r busy playing counerstrike... damn im so tired...

YAwn

2006-10-22T20:54:00.000-07:00

my 3rd sis just came back frm thailand last nite.. damn tiring.. help her unpack...
woke up at 10.30 am todae.. damn it.. i hope i slp abit longer
damn it...
shitted twice this morning.. thanks to last nite's feast.. damn it.. ate too much last nite...
shld have taken my 3 months preggy tummy...

he's coming back todae.. with his younger siblings... damn have to acompany them till tmr... they r styaying ovre tonite.. but tonite we have dinner with regina, she wants to intro her bf to us...

im so fucking tired nw... cant get enuf slp...
ccant get to slp...

hp bill is here...
last 2 months damn i stlll owe singtel 70 buck... last month's bill was onli 41.. damn it.. tink is the cheapest bill i've every had since i got tis number...

i wan to c him soon.... faster cum back...

he is back!!! yay...
whohohoho..
but still we quarell ike no body busines

he brought his siblings along.. damn noisy la.. v mafan.. walk abit tired tired.. damn...
cant have a TOgether time..they wil b here till wed so its kinda shit...
tmr still have to company them.. damn it.. so tiring,,
todae... miting wit regina was cancelled.. aris was sick.. damn...
btw tink regina really has tt sumting goin on with aris.. think she likes him...
its nw to find out wheter he likes her or not..
btw todae i got the thumbdrive frm regina..
all the bbq pics n the mooncake fest pics.. hmmp gotta upload it soon

not back yet?

2006-10-21T21:45:00.000-07:00

still not back yet
i hate it
he's a liar
promises
that are never kept
that is y we have male species in the world
they are all liars

he's still here
orchid park block D no 185
not back yet
when are u coming back?

dear daniel from hello kitty

2006-10-21T21:35:00.000-07:00

dear daniel,

i have to sae this...
u mite aleady feel the tension n hatred now.after i published this blog. i bitch so much abt u, humiliation,insults watsoever u name it. im pissed okay..over the bbq thingy still. im a fucking petty person. get angry easily. frm wad i remember, im the ONE organising the bbq, suggest the party and booked the pit. helo. i donno y it then became UR thingy.. myab u have taken the role as a clas rep too far. i dun wan to take the credit hu did this n tt.. like ple came up n thanking mi for the lovely bbq bla bla.,. hey i dun nid tt shit oke. but u just come out in no whr taking in charge of everything hw would i feel? i coulndt get mysedlf to tell u this. ireally hate this.if someone else take everyting frm wad u hav plan im sure anione would get angry--ph mayb nt alll... but still u shld at least discuss with mi--ya u did after u plan everything alredy tt i cant even sae aniting... it really suck okay... days to bbq. making mi more angry. wenever ple ask mio abt hey nicole the bbq thingy bla bla i get so irritated.. i dun plan animore. u ask daniel.. damn.i wass theo ne hu was so xcited at the first place asking everyone abt the bbq. damn it. its already over but.. how this blog will affect oyur frenship,. welll i tiink i already made a pretty shit bad impression.
i dun hate u. its really nice to have u ard.. in fact well i like u alot. its just silly things tt made mi becuming like a damn hulk pretty fast...l i apologise for being to harsh. im sorry. sumtimes i've been thinking if i could turn back the time, i would wan to go back the time where we can still go out watch movie, talking on fone like nobody business.. well its great to have u as friend. its just my damn bitching problem.. welll again sorry...

bbq

2006-10-20T12:47:00.000-07:00

the bbq was okay la... daniel didnt talk much... they all went don to the sea....
daniel camera wasnt working after a soak in e water
btw we plan to chip in abit cash to get him a new one..
btw damn it i donno wad actualkly happen mayb after he seen my blog... i bitch so much abt my unhappiness n grudges on him... tink he behave like... "i dont wan to talk, u humiliate mi kinda wae"
we didnt talk at all ya a few sentence.,, its so not him... btw
my darling.., still nt back yet im farking missing him teribly... damn dharmawan.. i hate this feeling.. i habent done much yet..
i was procastinating... n still now... non stop.. keep dragging dont knw wad...
bt david was asking mi abt the gridge i have on daniel.. i tink i mite have gone overboard.. bitching n humiliating this poor uncle ohapily on my blog.. he mite be weeping n very angry after i wrote all shits abt him....
damn la..
btw back to the bbq...
we played the smoking game... hu ever gets the coin fall to the cup wil have to drink the green tea n ashes of the cigarette.. heheh.. esther n david gets it..
we had an ice competition.. hu ever soak their hand the longest into the foam box full of ice wil win...
guess wad...
ms khadija n mr harry won the competition..
pictures will b uploaded asap

library

2006-10-20T01:46:00.000-07:00

damn it
again stuck in library for hours... im waitng for my darling to comeback.. i dun tink tt fast
bbq starting soon..
damn it...
im in dillema wheter to go or wait for my darling n fetch him back...
i miss him so much...
i feel like calling him now...
i wan to c him!!!
its been 6 days frm nw...
i miss him so much...
pls cum back soon...

i love library..
u get free aircon
free wireless
free electricity
free browing of books
free tables n cahirs for u to it down n do ur work...
damn i hope i own the library n i will hav a VIP room where i have bed sofa tv etc,,,,
i love library...

too many things-too little time

2006-10-19T08:55:00.000-07:00

too mani things in life now that i wanna do
too little time for mi to do it all
i wan to be a famous designer
i wan to be a tai tai
i wan to have a BMW
i wan to have a husband
i wan to own a cafe
i wan to grow my hair long
i wan to slim down my fat thighs
i wan to have eyelid surgery
i wan to save up
i wan to have amex
i wan to own a condominium
i wan to change my life now
i wan to stop bitching
i wan to stop irritate people
i wan to be given a chance
i wan to earn
i wan to respect
i wan to be respected
i wan to stop being lazy
i wan to do my work
i wan to have a fantastic portfolio
i wan to have a cool job
i wan to be with him
i wan him to be with mi
i wan dharmawan kiang
i wan to talk on fone everynite
i wan to have a bunch of girlfriends
i wan to be loved
i wan to have alot admirers
i wan to love
i wan to be forgiven
i wan to turn back the time
i wan i wan i wan i wan so many thing

too little time...
i can achieve it if i want to if i work hard if i try
i never try

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19 october 11:59pm

he's not back yet... his fone has no balance
he could not reply
he woke up at 2 pm
he s nt doing aniting
he doesnt wan to come back
he doesnt wan to c me
he makes mi worried
he doesnt miss me
he doesnt want to talk
he's not worried
he's not him
he is a somebody
he is a man
he is my man
he is my love
he is dharmawan kiang

its submission day

2006-10-18T22:36:00.000-07:00

i woke up it was 10 n sleep until 11
damn tired... i hate BLOODY month... ruin my facey...

today latest submission of the farking essay 4.30pm

he's coming bck todae... cant wait to c him...

D.A.M.N

2006-10-18T10:25:00.000-07:00

i left the class early todae...noting much to show vincente aniwaae...
damn it i habent done aniting.. ani projects noting is completed.. damn it i hope i could hav a quater of daniel's har-working-NESS god damn it.. im such a backstabber.. looking back previous posts.. i've been a fucking bitch n backstabber... aniwe hu cares abt backstabbing ple...
what is backstabbing actually mean?
im just abnormal and indecisive at all times... am i counted as backstabbing? well i do have split- personality

i miss him so much... he's so cruel make his girlfriend miss him teribly...
he's suppose to be back todae... again.. his dad wans him to go back togetehr with him tmr.. so fine.. another dae.. its been 4 terible days.. i cnat stop tinking...

finally finished the the god damn essay
my content suck.. i never like essay

i miss him

2006-10-17T11:10:00.000-07:00

miss him alot.. has been 70 hrs and 37 minutes we habent met... i miss him alot... cum back faster...
miss his unusual slping face.. hmmm i just love it

skul my ASS

2006-10-17T00:28:00.000-07:00

da,m it... i bathe twice todae...
tidae farking long dae...
HOT, HAZY

media class todae.. well tink almost everyone is doin their work... when its uncle turn... damn it... his is like so pinkish... so girl n farking nice... the first word i could sae was fuck
fucking psycho... damn it.. i canot lose him damn it...

damn it.. i wun lose- ya i will win if i kick out LAZY in my life. which is quite imposible nw damn im lazy lazy lazy....

monday blues

2006-10-16T08:26:00.000-07:00

coming to monday agian...
hate monday...
hate sunday...
monday is worst...
the worst.. got to wake up very eaarly for henry cls.,.. after seeing henry wad we hv been doin/ idea bla bla bla.. oke tts all.. damn waste my time waking up damn early...
after skul went to bras basah.. art fren... daniel n esther-print production cls... doing a poster.. they were collecting tghe print out todae.. wow grp 2- i wan inittially in the grp but pull out... damn nice man... grp 1 poster aiyah just a normal colour chart...

damn tiring.. after work...

still-im a bitch tink all the readers- mayb nt alot or mayb none...
will b like wah- here she go complaining abt the same thing same person agian...
todae he n his partner start to collect money n get conformation frm the cls abt the bbq thinggy still-- hehhehe

damn la.. i tink the food sucks... hell no im goin to tt bbq paying the odd sum of $11 for curry n fried rice.. WTF... cant stand it i tink i will tell the uncle to change it... damn uncle donno anitng... esther is marinating the wings.. its kinda alot work for her i tink.. just order la everyting.. hw much onli no nid to actually go n buy raw n marinated watever pee on it shit on in... so troublesome...btw i itnk we have enuf funds so y not just buy...

damn i habent start our pretty act cool lecturer ginette chittick 1000 words essay damn its due on thurs im gonna die i itink i better pay vernon or daniel 50 buks to do it hehehe

love at 100

2006-10-15T08:11:00.000-07:00

i miss him so much...

cant do aniting now...

projects mostly left untouched damn... 1000 words essay... damn it.. im so farking lazy even wit or w/o him

miss him so much wondering wad he's doin nw...

i wan to bcum an I.D

i've been eating non stop since afternoon... my stomach nw fucking bloated like 3 months preggy...

i wan to smell BLV nw

class splitting

2006-10-14T23:12:00.000-07:00

Hey guys!!
There is a rumor (??) that we are going to be split up next semester cos they're all going to re-shuffle the classes... I don't know if it's really 100% confirmed but people have been saying that Hidayah talked about it, so maybe it will really come true.

Gilene, me and a few others have talked about it, and we are not very happy and don't want to split up. If it's really true, Gilene suggested doing a petition and ask the other classes to contribute as well.

I think shuffling classes for next semester is a bit counter-productive, cos we have to readjust and get used to working with new people all over again... pick new class rep, exchange contacts etc. All that time could be better spent on focusing on other things like schoolwork! Besides, we are going to have new classes every year anyway, if we keep having to re-shuffle, it kinda takes away a sense of "belonging" and bad for student morale.

What are your thoughts on this?? I don't mind helping to draft up a letter, if we really want to do a petition...maybe we can ask a student rep to take it to the lecturers later and help us argue our case ;) . But a petition is only good if there are lots of supporters... are U willing to sign? Do U know if the other classes are also against this? Maybe we can discuss in school tomorrow or something. Just an idea!!

Huiwei

An email frm hui wei...ya we heard alot abt the cls will b shuffled next sem. i agree with hui wei tt we should have a petition n get everyone to support... shuffling mayb nt gud, well we alreasy so called bond with the cls. n next sem we got to re-adapt again and its kinda irritating...
i hope the board will reconsider abt this splitting of cls thingy...

'HIM'

2006-10-14T07:56:00.000-07:00

mr dharmawan kiang

my first time-oh no first ever success blog

2006-10-14T06:59:00.000-07:00

i just love this picture taken in skul toilet last sem

well, finally after reading sum hilarious blogs tink agn i tink i will have it on goin for now...
it will b a simple blog i would sae with no high tech animate stuff bubbles.. ya mayb i will put those if im nt a com idiot...
btw where should i begin... introduce my self? tts too stupid i guess.

a pretty shit dae... very tiring dae-eventhough i did nothin.
well, i sent my dearest boyfren to harbour front he's goin back to indo to discuss sum business wit our bessy iwan.
today... 14 oct is his bdae i mean iwan's bdae... n oso stanley's bdae.. a guy i use to stalked, to love so much, to idolise, to dream of... damn he's still damn hot..

see his pic the guy on the right... stanley ma su leung... and his best buddy rovin luo wei on the left. its kinda stupid when i thought over stupid tings tt i had done... in exchange of stanley's pic i made a deal with his best buddy luo wei. i had to get the photo of the girl he likes. damn it was so fun yet stupid though.

back to todae, until now... 10.05pm still habent touch ani of the projects damn im such a lazy pig. im so tired mayb bcoz of the haze... damn im so embarassed tt indo has caused so mani problems to other country...